Devoid of Inspiration

Well well.  I’m back.  After quite some time, I’ve come back to this blog.  Yes, I can hear the collective sigh of relief from here.  Don’t get too excited, my dear readers as I make no promises for how long I’ll be back.  But, we’ll just all take it as it comes, OK?

It has occurred to me that my disappearance has been due, in large part, to the fact that I seem to have lost inspiration. Of any kind.

I’m currently fascinated by people we all hear about – those who have pushed themselves above and beyond to achieve things that most of us just don’t even think about.  Whether it be the athlete that becomes a super-star against all odds, the musician that tries and tries to get that big break, or the hoarders that clean out their house.  Their stories are just all around us.  And in the midst of all these stories of personal motivation and divine inspiration, I find that I’m decidedly lacking inspiration.

Quite honestly, it’s not like I’m not doing things.  I work hard at a new job to learn things I haven’t been exposed to before and I’m studying hard to complete a Master’s degree. I take care of other people’s pets as a side job.  I keep a clean house and make sure that the bills are paid.  I go out occasionally to meet friend for a meal or even a drink or two.  The real problem is, that I just don’t seem to care about much these days.

But, darn it, I want to be inspired.  I want to want something, anything, enough to work really hard at getting it.  To have a goal that requires a single-minded effort over a period of time to actually reach an achievement.

There are a million things I see each day that stirs a little bit of desire – watching a cooking show, I think “how cool would it be to learn how to cook gourmet meals” or seeing a fit guy run by makes me think “I think I’d like to begin weight training and really bulk up” or hearing a colleague speak a foreign language makes me think about pushing myself to become fluent in French.  But, I never seem to get past the fleeting idea.

So, here we go.  Let’s see if we can find some inspiration.